What is the meaning of Life? – To live… consciousness of consciousness in existence

I have contemplated the meaning of life and when asked what it is I usually defer to, “I don’t think that my brain is evolved to understand such things,” or “I am not sure that I am supposed to know… and I find that lack of existential responsibility to be comforting.” Today I will offer that perhaps the meaning of life is simply to live. When I say such a thing most people jump to anarchy, hedonism, and/or an existence without ethics and morality. To that I would reply that I believe that morals, ethics and structure are a part of existence, which life’s consciousness quantifies with terminology, relationship, math or language so that we reach some degree of understanding of the apparent balance of all existence. So to clarify, the meaning of life is then to live within the balance of existence… and to have life means to have a direct individual experience of this balance… to be able to experience this interconnectedness of everything from an individual perspective. 
What is life? Life appears to be consciousness.
What is the meaning of life? The meaning of life is to interact with your consciousness of consciousness and to experience the sensations of doing such.
Consciousness of Consciousness? perhaps consciousness existed and then became conscious of itself… Consciousness used math (apparently) to quantify the dimensions of itself and reality was then born. For some reason all that we can be conscious of seems to be quantifiable using math… this puzzles me.
And why do morals, laws, and cause and effect seem to exist? because life is made possible by its’ collective consciousnesses’ agreement to perceive structure in a sea of infinite chaos… if consciousness did not project a balance or an order onto chaos then it would have nothing to be conscious of… morals are a way for our current state of consciousness to understand the balance of the greater consciousness… morals, laws etc are our way of understanding how consciousness ordered chaos into that which is conceivable… within balance, existence became conceivable… consciousness therefore begat itself from an intention which it held before its apparent existence.
Which came first the chicken or the egg? Both
What is balance? Everything
How do you differentiate one thing from another? Collective agreement… as everything is the other thing.
 
Do you have any idea what you are talking about? I have thought about it long enough to know that I will never be able to think this into certainty… I will never know how to know what I am talking about.
This is all conceptually impossible! I agree, that is why I simply state that the meaning of life is to live.
 
That sound defeatist! And accepting?